今年七月是怎麼樣的日子,英瑪褒曼先生?

今年七月,是怎麼樣的日子?

不到六十歲的楊德昌過世了,然後我最欣賞及敬愛的導演英瑪褒曼也過世了,幾乎不到一天,另一位著名導演安東尼奧尼去世了.

同月,皇后碼頭要強拆了,韓國的弟兄姊妹被脅持了,一位牧師被殺,還有另一個又被殺了..

而我, 身心俱疲,面對沒完沒了的工作. 累了..

睡在床上,想著耶穌,可以的話,真想立即能見袮的面.

還有很多想做的事未做,還有很多想說的話未說,還有未對不知為何突然離開我的人,問個究竟;還有未對深愛的人,想提起勇氣說: 其實我是愛你的...

現在的我,選擇沉默,因為英瑪褒曼在此刻離世了,我的心,比在海床中隱藏已久的,已腐蝕如爛鐵的船,沉得更無可救藥...

我知道,沒有什麼是永恆的,如人的壽命,我爸的早逝,我已知曉,
英瑪,你的死,在自然中不是什麼奇事,八十九歲..壽享天年.
但,我仍然痛心,失去一個如此道出自己心聲的朋友.你的"第七封印",野草莓,芬妮與雅歷山大...

雖然,我們從無見面,你也沒可能認識我.你能想像當我看完第七封印後,那種悲喜,久久不能平伏的心情嗎?

於是我,像把眼睛和耳朵都蒙住了,對一切世情,愛與傷害,歡喜與哀愁,奉承與嘲弄,怒罵與貶抑,都視而不見了,選擇以一種旁人不易察覺的沉默,表達對你最深最深的懷念...

Darker with the day--Nick Cave

As so with that, I thought I'd take a final walk
The tide of public opinion had started to abate
The neighbours, bless them, had turned out to be all talk
I could see their frightened faces peering at me through the gate

I was looking for an end to this, for some kind of closure
Time moved so rapidly, I had no hope of keeping track of it
I thought of my friends who had died of exposure
And I remembered other ones who had died from the lack of it

And in my best shoes I started falling forward down the street
I stopped at a church and jostled through the crowd
And love followed just behind me, panting at my feet
As the steeple tore the stomach from a lonely little cloud

Inside I sat, seeking the presence of a God
I searched through the pictures in a leather-bound book
I found a woolly lamb dozing in an issue of blood
And a gilled Jesus shivering on a fisherman's hook

Babe
It seems so long
Since you've been gone away
And I
Just got to say
That it grows darker with the day

Back on the street I saw a great big smiling sun
It was a Good day and an Evil day and all was bright and new
And it seemed to me that most destruction was being done
By those who could not choose between the two

Amateurs, dilettantes, hacks, cowboys, clones
The streets groan with little Caesars,
Napoleons and cunts
With their building blocks and their tiny plastic phones
Counting on their fingers, with crumbs down their fronts

I passed by your garden, saw you with your flowers
The Magnolias, Camellias and Azaleas so sweet
And I stood there invisible in the panicking crowds
You looked so beautiful in the rising heat

I smell smoke, see little fires bursting on the lawns
People carry on regardless, listening to their hands
Great cracks appear in the pavement, the earth yawns
Bored and disgusted, to do us down

Babe
It seems so long
Since you've been gone
And I
Just got to say
That it grows darker with the day

These streets are frozen now, I come and go
Full of a longing for something I do not know
My father sits slumped in the deepening snow
As I search, ion and out, above, about, below

Babe
It seems so long
Since you went away
And I
Just got to say
That it grows darker with the days

Nick cave 的介紹

GOD is in the house --- Nick Cave

As I sat sadly by her side--Nick Cave

As I sat sadly by her side

原藉澳洲籍Nick Cave既寫歌又寫詞.

他寫詞的內容,總有" 垮掉的一代" 作家的風格與味道.
他的歌聲,娓娓道來,像傾吐自己的過往與傷口.

Nick Cave外形並不討好.但卻有難以形容的,從隱密處散發出來的魅力.

這首歌予人感覺悲情帶有優雅.

As I sat sadly by her side
At the window, through the glass
She stroked a kitten in her lap
And we watched the world as it fell past
Softly she spoke these words to me
And with brand new eyes, open wide
We pressed our faces to the glass
As I sat sadly by her side

She said, father, mother, sister, brother,
Uncle, aunt, nephew, niece,
Soldier, sailor, physician, labourer,
Actor, scientist, mechanic, priest
Earth and moon and sun and stars
Planets and comets with tails blazing
All are there forever falling
Falling lovely and amazing

Then she smiled and turned to me
And waited for me to reply
Her hair was falling down her shoulders
As I sat sadly by her side

As I sat sadly by her side
The kitten she did gently pass
Over to me and again we pressed
Our different faces to the glass
That may be very well, I said
But watch the one falling in the street
See him gesture to his neighbours
See him trampled beneath their feet
All outward motion connects to nothing
For each is concerned with their immediate need
Witness the man reaching up from the gutter
See the other one stumbling on who can not see

With trembling hand I turned toward her
And pushed the hair out of her eyes
The kitten jumped back to her lap
As I sat sadly by her side

Then she drew the curtains down
And said, when will you ever learn
That what happens there beyond the glass
Is simply none of your concern?
God has given you but one heart
You are not a home for the hearts of your brothers

And God does not care for your benevolence
Anymore than he cares for the lack of it in others
Nor does he care for you to sit
At windows in judgement of the world he created
While sorrows pile up around you
Ugly, useless and over-inflated

At which she turned her head away
Great tears leaping from her eyes
I could not wipe the smile from my face
As I sat sadly by her side


延伸閱讀:
Nick Cave
垮掉的一代 Beat Generation

海闊天空

One of the song I love.

The friends from the study group love it so much.




今天我 寒夜裡看雪飄過
懷著冷卻了的心窩飄遠方
風雨裡追趕 霧裡分不清影縱
天空海闊你與我 可會變

多少次 迎著冷眼與嘲笑
從沒有放棄過心中的理想
一剎那恍惚 若有所失的感覺
不知不覺已變淡 心裡愛


原諒我這一生不羈放縱愛自由
也會怕有一天會跌到
背棄了理想 誰人都可以
那會怕有一天只你共我

戰狼三百/Bosch and Beksinski

戰狼三百 上DVD. 心郁郁想買.

這部電影. 簡直如看放大了的電腦GAME. 先不論劇情.美工造型及氣氛的碓不俗.

劇情結尾情節與景觀鋪排..總令我聯想帝國驕雄, (當然帝片的劇情起伏好得多.)

記得跟同看此片的michael講過.此片對遠景所營造的氛圍, 令我想起兩個畫家,不過一時記不起名字的串法.

那兩位畫家,一是 波蘭的超現實主義畫家Beksinski ( 1929-2005)





另一位是文藝復興時期的畫家 Hieronymous Bosch, (1450 - 1516)




二人都曾畫地獄,以此著名. Beksinski則以神秘主義觀點去呈現人類死亡的宿命,及死後世界的寂靜.蕭索.恐懼, Bosch因基督信仰,更多以描繪人類因沉淪而墮入地獄,因信主得救的境況.

Bosch畫作的超現實造型,對西班牙超現實畫家達利,有啟發及非常深遠的影響.


小時候,家中有很多畫冊,是爸由日本買回來的. 想必因為媽媽勤於作畫,所以爸由日本講學回來,就買大量的畫冊,冊內的畫,都是收藏於世界各地不同博物館的藏畫.

日本的書印刷精美,顏色層次分明. 那時最愛偷進爸爸的書房中,看這些一本又一本的畫冊,看到Bosch所畫的地獄,既驚奇又好玩. 覺得神秘極了,跟自己看的兒童漫畫,簡直是兩個世界

記得爸爸最愛講恐佈故事. 或者鬼故,有時問爸,這幅畫是做什麼的. 爸會亂編一個嚇人故事,弄得我晚上睡不著覺.簡直是"驚嚇童年"...

CashBack

在內地工作的友人侯活,強力推介CashBack(港譯愛情回水). 佢一向看嘅電影都有番咁上下質素.

好,搵日看看.

上Cash Back的官方網,第一印象已非常好.1) 多靚女 2)音樂非常好聽
單是這兩樣,已吸引我了.

在youtube找到兩個版本的trailers.







延伸閱讀: CashBack官方網站 記得打開Audio部分 音樂好好聽